Well, I have heard from all of my schools but one and based on the track record and the fact that it's the most difficult , that's gonna be a no. I ended up with a few acceptances and for that I am truly grateful. But going to vent a bit now and please forgive me. I came into this process with a realistic approach. I felt like I had the talent based on the feedback I receive and my director's comments that I have great potential. We hired one of the top agencies to train with, but it was almost always by skype because of my travel limitations from mid america. I enjoyed this process but never connected with my coaches on a deep level. I always felt like they didn't think I had a good shot and gave me songs that didn't thrill me. They also didn't not prepare me with the right monologues for the schools I auditioned for. I worked so hard though, trusting that someone would take a chance on me. I do have some options but I feel dejected and rejected. I am dejected bc I don't think I was prepared correctly and that I wasn't able to show what I can do. Several of the schools I went to did not even want to hear my belt song bc it was not modern enough for what they like. Others took a chance and asked me for another song and they liked it better than what my coaches had selected. I do feel that some of the larger coaching groups have gotten too large to give everyone attention, that they are cliquey with the kids who can travel to take lessons in person and have connections. I feel like it was a waste of my money bc what I got in the end, I could have gotten without help. I still don't think anyone has seen whst I can do and I'm really down. Pardon my frustration and congrats to everyone. I just don't know where to go from here. My options are not fits for my personality and I'm not wanting a gap year. Thank you for listening. :(
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